to YOU

recieved an sms today.
it was YOU.
it was again about how sad YOUR life was and today wasnt any exception.
i was just upset.. upset over the fact that i can never trust you again.

never in the past 3 yrs when weve been together that i have doubted your words ever. i trusted you completely, so much so that it didnt occured to me that the stuff you said were all just a pack of lies. do you actually realise how much youve hurt me? was it only all about keeping me by your side?

i know im not even close to being a gd boyfriend but do i actually deserve this from you? Sleepless nights worrying that something would happen to you. i became paranoid. i was on the verge of breaking down. i snapped and you still didnt wanna let go. it was pain i was going through, a pain that i cldnt share but only go alone with.

everything seems so blurry to me. its fear that i live in now whenever i hear from you. why? why hold on to something that you never believed in? you always believed that youve been shortchanged in life but have you ever tried to make a difference yourself? have you kept to your side of the bargain in those deals you made? i wldnt think im in any position to comment anymore cos its your life. you gave me up on the day you decided to lie to me and sadly you knew that there was no turning back.

cherish the ones you love and never take that for granted cos youll never know when youll lose them for good.